The HBS ding was definitely a downer for me, despite the fact that I never really saw myself as a fit for the school and that I knew my chances were really low going in.Â I began to worry that the rest of my responses would come in exactly the same way.Â I was already starting to weigh my thinking solely on the two UC schools that had already invited me to interview.
This afternoon I received a very cryptic email from Wharton, looking very similar to the HBS email that eventually led to a rejection.Â There was no decision in the email; it simply asked me to log in to find out what my decision was.Â â€œHere we go againâ€ I thought.Â I dug up my log in and password expecting to experience the same rejection process I went through only a few days before.Â I mean really, if they invite you to an interview, canâ€™t they at least send you an email telling you so?Â (This is what the UC schools did)Â This wouldâ€™ve saved me the 3 minutes of stress from navigating through a web browser to find out one of the most important decision points in my career.Â When I finally came to my application landing page, I saw three words that immediately changed my tone and brightened my day:
â€œInvitedÂ to Interviewâ€
The admissions process is definitely an emotional rollercoaster ride with the same peaks and valleys that I experienced while studying for the GMAT.Â However, these emotional swings are definitely more stressful because this is the final leg of the race.Â The process is also a lot more subjective â€“ when I get a question wrong on the GMAT, 99.9% of the time I know why I got it wrong and feel the outcome is fair.Â The admissions process just doesnâ€™t have the same transparency and it can be difficult to tell why youâ€™ve been accepted or rejected.
Iâ€™ve noticeably been posting less on my blog because this whole process is stressing me out.Â Iâ€™ve started losing sleep over the subject, just thinking about all the different scenarios in my head.Â I decided early on to keep off of the boards and other peopleâ€™s blogs because I knew that hearing applicant outcomes before my own decision was finalized would only stress me out.Â But I knew decisions were going out, and the longer I had to wait to receive feedback, the lower my overall odds would get.
Going back to the day I decided to go to business school last July, Iâ€™ve honestly count of how many times Iâ€™ve been broken down and built up again emotionally.Â Overflowing confidence can easily turn itself into self-pity, and vice versa, all in a short amount of time.Â One thing I know for sure though: Iâ€™ve been invited to interview at more than half the schools I applied to, and reaching this milestone is a good feeling.