Getting through work was tough last week. Out of the five schools I’ve applied to, two of them have dinged me already, and since I haven’t heard a peep out of Stanford, I assume that’s a ding as well. That just leaves two schools left, both of which I completed interviews for.
This past weekend was essentially my first, in over 6 months, of being completely free of any type of business school prep obligations. No GMAT prep, no essays, no interviews looming. And while this should have been a celebration of sorts, I really couldn’t enjoy it. I spent most of it sulking and worrying about the future.
I’ve never really had a detailed backup plan, in the case that I get into none of the schools I applied to, but one of the things I considered was applying to a one year international program, like INSEAD or London Business School. I also know a couple of schools offer rolling admissions, but I’m not sure I have the heart to put myself through the application process again, at least not this soon. I’ve never really considered staying at my job. The pay and the work life balance are great, but I know that I need an MBA to get the professional development I want.
My day of reckoning is in about two weeks. Until then, my life is in limbo. It’s difficult to find enjoyment in everyday things when I know my life is about to be turned upside down. And when that happens, I’ll either be feeling great or as if I’ve wasted half a year of my life.